Good lord, next week’s promo looks crazy…and disturbing. I wonder if the paternity (*cough* Chuck’s the father *cough*) test is gonna come out! I want to feel sorry for Dan from this episode, but most of me doesn’t. In fact, almost none of me does. I can’t believe how cynical he was about Serena. Yeah, all of that stuff happened, but he was IN LOVE with her. How can he expect to be seen as a person with any morals when he portrays her so awfully? Louis is an
idiot if he really thought DB slept together. I mean, seriously? That Chuck/Louis moment…*sigh* it wasn’t as amazing as I thought it’d be, but it still totally broke my heart. Chuck was so nonchalant during the whole episode and then he ended up all alone in the book & was totally crushed. Staff found him. =( He was nearly in tears when he told Lily he’d lost Blair, and that
was who he really thought could love him, if anyone could. *sigh* Poor Chuck. Interesting development with Ivy, but I was sad there was no mention at all of Max in the episode. *pout* Dan is in some serious trouble…*sigh* I hope this all works out. The worst here I feel for I think is Serena and Chuck. I wish Louis had told Blair that it was Chuck who made him change his mind. Good lord. This is just so…*sigh* I wish Blair would have told him she’d slept with Chuck too. He would’ve been fuming, but at least she’d be one less secret free. *sigh* Then, all she’d have is the paternity test…lol. I suppose him seeing the envelope alone would cause drama, but it’s the content that matters. ;) Btw, TOTALLY disappointed at CB’s scene. Major ugh. It looked so much more amazing and romantic in the set pics…*sigh* Also, why exactly was Nate pissed? Cause he didn’t have a bigger role? *hmms* LOVED that Blair went off at Dan too. I only hope she’ll keep the perspective that she and Dan will NEVER. HAPPEN. Besides, I don’t care about all the nonsense that CB bring out the worst in each other, cause honestly? Blair brings out the worst in Dan in regards to other people. I mean, going off at Serena? Judging Chuck a couple episodes back? Just…*shakes head* everything. He’s so focused on being in love with her and having her that he’s completely neglected his morals for everyone else. I don’t hate him but…

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OH. MY. GOD. I’m all choked up. B totally didn’t open it though! She just wanted her happily ever after! I bet it totally IS Chuck’s!!! Omgomgomg. And him CRYING at the end!!! He feels again! *wails* WOW. Next week’s promo looks intriguing, but…wow. *shakes head* This is CRAZINESS. I feel so bad for Chuck! And I can’t believe B would do that! It’s everything she
wants, but…omg…*shakes head* Okay, I’ll try to take some deep breaths & write about the rest of the episode. Ivy. I think it’s good that she wants to try to live the NYC life as Charlie Rhodes, but I still really love the story with her bf. I hope he comes around sometime later in the show. I like the sweet relationship they have. Nate is…well, my goodness, I liked his description of GG. I can see Diana is obvs trying to take over that & he’s clearly taking that naughty chance by flipping through Ivy’s phone & no doubt trying to blackmail her…*sighs & shakes head* My goodness. Chuck’s initial reaction to the dog was PRICELESS. Hahaha. I knew he couldn’t possibly love it at first! That’s just not Chuck! And Dan…he is great. Lol. Again, next episode looks interesting w/ him. I loved how he was pushing B around all episode. That was funny. Lol. Sometimes I wish she weren’t always living in her denial…*sigh* We finally got a CB interaction! I honestly didn’t think it was going to be at the end of this episode! But…*sigh* oh wow. I really believe it’s his. This is SO heartbreaking. (Sidenote though: RL were super cute! Just as we were told they would be. Aww. ;))

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Oh, crap. My internet killed itself & I had written up SO much. *dramatic sigh* Well, in a nutshell...lol, I sympathized the most w/ Ivy. She had to give up EVERYTHING just to keep the secret that she was Charlie. I really hope she can come full circle with her boyfriend eventually. They seemed so sweet together. Naturally, she has to date Nate first. XD Maybe she's going to try & get on people's bad side so she can come back. *sigh* I just really want that to work out. *pout* Moving on...DBC. Okay, Blair plain just cracked me up this episode. I know she was dealing w/ alot, but it was just hysterical trying to keep everything going smoothly whilst throwing up every 2 seconds. XD Beatrice is a little devil, but I think I'm going to enjoy this scheming. heheh. I feel for her in that she wants the title & she's not getting it. In all truth, we could just send B off w/ Chuck & have Louis live normally in a way that abandons his title. heh. Cause let's face it, no matter how B supposedly "loves" Louis, the stakes would be considerably lower if he wasn't a prince. Just sayin. *shrug* And so we come to DB. I really really want to appreciate their moments, but despite the writers saying it's not a romantic situation between them right now, that could easily change. They love to toy w/ our emotions & a DB romance has been rumored since they became friends last season. It just leaves me on edge, b/c I really want to enjoy their friendship, cause it's great. That last scene was so sweet & I really wanted to love it,b ut the parallel to when they fell asleep on the couch together & him being there for her even if everything else goes wrong? *sighs testily* It just kind of makes me nauseous. *pukes* Plus, Dan is SO incredibly judgmental of Chuck, even at the end when he says Chuck is in this state of not being able to feel b/c Blair left him for Louis when that's not the case at all! Blair was eager to be with Chuck! It was CHUCK who refused to go back to her b/c her happily ever after "wouldn't be with him". *rolls eyes* *mutters* I really hope he GETS just how deep Chuck's love for Blair runs, despite the things he's done that have hurt her - which he never intentionally sought out to do! *sigh* I am glad that he helped Chuck several times though. *nods* And omg, best line of the night? "I could tickle you"!!! lmao, yes! I wanna see it. haha good lord, that would look weird though. *shakes head* lololol *clears throat* At least in the final DB scene, Blair's basically first thing she says is "How's Chuck?" - oh, right after she confirms that she still detests Brooklyn. lol. I kinda hate that Dan was the first person (aside from Dorota) she told about her being pregnant, but given the circumstances, it was pretty much the only thing she COULD say. It is interesting they bring up the bullimia again in this way though...it does seem to be that things are coming around full circle from season 1. Very interesting... I like that DS talked on the phone!!! That made me happy. lol. As bad as I feel for Ivy, I did think at one point that she should give up trying. Try as you might, Serena is relentless w/ her happiness & giving joy, especially if she likes you tons. lol. Her offers are usually pretty impossible to turn down. ;) Oh, and Nate...the once again pointless SL. *sigh* Why is it only HIM we get hot scenes w/? I mean, really? Though, I don't want a hot BL scene, and that's really the only other couple on the scene, so...that works. lol. Oh, that & Chuck w/ girls, but I DEF don't want that. I feel bad for the poor baby being unable to feel. *sigh* The 5x04 episode stills made me squeal today & it's clear that he DOES get some help & by the time he finally meets up w/ Blair again, he's far gone in love - and in pain, I imagine. *sigh* Next week's promo is craziness though! I didn't think we'd know the father this soon! And I'm sure we won't...which, if it's Chuck's (which it HAS to be, for drama's sake if nothing else) I wouldn't want him to find out. His unfeelingness towards ANYTHING would not be a good response to B's "You're the father!" lol. So, no, as much as I hate to push it off...it must be done. She can tell us, and then we can be in torment b/c Chuck doesn't know, no one does. haha. XD Back to Nate for a brief second. He's SO out of his league w/ this woman. And not on a physical level, on an INTELLECTUAL level. He doesn't even know what he's in for. This is no Catheryne, or any other girl you screwed, mind you. But I do love how he really took on the big-brother role when he heard about Chuck's injuries. At the beginning of the episode was Chuck was only being ruffed up a little, I was like 'seriously? that's all we get?' lol. It's horrible, but I wanted more. For vidding purposes naturally. ;) Anyways, I'm glad he's stopped beating himself up & that Blair obviously cares tons still. *sigh* For what it's worth, I really want to appreciate the DBCness in its current state. I'm just afraid to love it, b/c I know it's bound to turn on me any second & merge DB into a couple. *sigh* Chuck being a do-gooder and helping Dan out was slightly weird, but given that he just gave him a diagnosis & is unfeeling in the most literal sense of the word, I accept it. Great episode. Want CB to meet already though!

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Let me start w/ the promo for next week, since it is leaving w/ one giant UGH taste in my mouth. *pukes* Everything from Dan's "She's over you" to Chuck's "Get the job done" shout CB non-feelingness & Chuck wanting an abortion?!? *cries/wails* *hyperventilates* I'm sure it relates to something else, but...*mutters* STILL. What I'm really confused about is if Dorota is pregnant TOO. It seems like a cover-up, but it could very well not be. I mean...there COULD be 2 babies? Maybe not. It better just be Blair. Don't steal her thunder, polish maid! Okay, *clears throat* let's go back to the beginning. I actually liked the BL sl in this episode. I mean, yes, I didn't like that it was BL instead of CB - which, btw, Chuck would have supported her in EVERYTHING, let her have ANYTHING she wanted, the FIRST time. I'm glad he stood up for her finally, but I seriously wanted to puke when DB's scene virtually had them on the edge of running away together, even if it was just as friends. *gags* Thankfully she's mad at him now. *beams* Fantabulous! =D And Chuck...oh goodness, his feel-good, always say "yes" state of mind may be all well & good, and kind of exciting to watch, but it's clear now that it can be shattered in an instant when he's brought back to the reality of REALLY losing Blair. I think he let himself forget about it all summer, but once he got that invite everything fell apart all over again. I mean, just check out how nasty that open wound is at the end!!! CHUUUCK!!! *cries* He's so not over her. All this matureness is a facade we never saw before & he knows it. No one can detect it b/c he's not drowning in scotch, but he's sticking to his promise and....oh goooodddd...UGH. But on to NS. lol. Diana(?)'s obvs got something up her sleeve. I hear Nate's gonna have a great SL this season, so I seriously hope I'm not disappointed by that. It would suck if he got another crummy guest star romance instead of something REAL going on in his life. And Serena! =D That guy she's working w/ is cute, but a total jerk. I get where he was coming from, but it still wasn't right. I'm glad she was able to get the job. =) Yaaay, happiness! *cheers* I also love that V & J were mentioned. After all, the actors may be gone but the characters can't just be ERASED. And ah, the moment comes where Dan realizes he may just want that story anonymously published - b/c hey! FREE MONEY! College tuition & free spending anyone? hehehe I think so! ;) I can't believe the WHOLE book is basically about Blair though. Daaaaang. More than pissed though that the rumored '3 words, 8 letters' referred to Dan being in love w/ Blair. Major UGH. I'm gonna need some serious CB fanfiction to get me through this one. *brings up Word document & begins to type*

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